Summer is always a bad time for me..

As most of you know I started a new job three weeks ago. And I was really happy to be working in a place that fit my schedule and where people were nicer. Just as I'm starting to get the swing of things.. sh*t hits the fan. I get a phone call from Monika ( my boss) saying that it's slowed down and she doesn't need me anymore. That I need to go somewhere else. Somewhere that pays hourly. It's really funny how all of a sudden she doesn't need me anymore. After she gets caught up. After I teach her a few things. My old boss from Regis does her hair..and all this happened right after. I bet you money that old hag had something to do with this.. So long story short..I am out of a job. And I have no idea what I'm going to do..Any and all clientele I had has been kicked out from under me because of her. I'm at a low point. Finding a new job just seems so hard because I looked for 2 months before I left Regis. I don't want to be in another chain salon because they suck the life out of you and they don't care about whether you have family or not. That was the problem with Regis. I worked until 10 every night. I worked every holiday. Almost missed Cayle's birthday. And it's just not something I want to get sucked into again. It's not good for Cayle. I'll give up doing hair before I work all night again. Most private salons want you to have a clientele and to pay booth rent. Booth rent ranges from 75 to 175 dollars a week. And you have to have a clientele to pay for something like that. But if I could get in somewhere I would be able to be my own boss. Which would be wonderful..but finding someone that would understand my situation and everything that's happened is hard these days. Daddy even offered to help me start my own business. That's always an option..but again..clientele. Regis clientele weren't loyal so it didn't help much. Part of me wants to give up and just find a job that is 9 ti 5 and pays good whether it's hair or not. Part of me wants to keep going..but it takes time. Time is a luxury I don't really have..I want out of my parent's house. I want to be able to have my own place and not try to raise a family out of someone else's home..And I'm trying everything I can possibly do. Mom even suggested I clean the house for money again. But what she pays isn't enough. It's enough for a tank of gas. And I want my own money. Not someone else's. I'm at a loss at this point. I really don't know where to go from here...

On a positive note..Ryan met my family. And it couldn't have gone better. My family really likes him. Dad especially. He came over for BBQ and drinks. Ryan even taught me how to fish. He had a big bass hooked and it got away so he let me try to fish for him. And I hooked him and had him reeled all the way in and he got off the hook. And then Ryan tried one more time and had him half way reeled in and he got off the hook again! Daddy really enjoyed meeting him. He kept inviting him over and out places which he never does. Ryan and Mom had fun talking. They cracked up about everything. I'm glad the whole 'meeting the family' thing is over and we can move on.

Ryan has been so supportive and understanding about this whole job ordeal. He said he would help me find something and that Monika is losing one hell of a stylist. And she's going to find herself in a world of trouble when she doesn't have any help. He always has a way to make me smile when I'm worried to no end. And it's the way he is that makes me think that we could go far and that maybe..just maybe he's the one. We don't get to go out on the town often..but we make up for it in other ways. We go when we can and if not we stay in and cook or watch movies or go for a drive. He's just an amazing guy. And in a way he's my best friend. And I think that's what makes us thrive. I can say anything or look at him and he knows exactly what I'm thinking or talking about. I think it's safe to say I like him. Hahah.

This is completely random..but Ryan has got me turned on to this show 'The Walking Dead'. If anyone has paid any mind to my pinterest page or facebook..you'll notice I watched all 3 seasons in a week. Normally I don't like zombies because they're kinda..overrated but this is amazing. I love Daryl he's my favorite character. I like that Ryan and I have something to bond over.

I'm such a bad blogger..but I'm gonna get better!!

I haven't been on this thing in almost 2 months! That's awful!! I'm still alive people! Haha. I have so much news I think my head is going to explode!

Firstly....drum roll please...I GOT A NEW JOB!!!!! I couldn't be happier. I've been there 3 weeks and I'm already getting people calling and scheduling with me! How awesome is that?!? My new place is called Salon Monika. It's privately owned, I make my own schedule, I get all the walk-ins, 60% commission, Sundays off, freedom to wear whatever I please, and everyone there treats me with respect! They really like my work and they make me feel good about my abilities. No more mall for me! This place is only 15 minutes from my house and I work 2 streets away from Ryan and right around the corner from my mom. It's pretty sweet. Plus being away from the mall is better for my wallet. Not to mention I'm bringing in almost double what I made at Regis.

Cayle is doing fantastic. We've been doing all sorts of things together in order to make this summer a fresh start. Summers before haven't been a good time in my life for me but this year I am determined to change it. So I've started a bucket list. In the past couple of months that I haven't been on here, Cayle and I have been out for frozen yogurt (that's our new favorite thing), we've been to the aquarium, I've changed my hair color, we've been to the Chattanooga Choo Choo model railroad, I've met Ryan's mom and stepfather, I've gone to two concerts (Sister Hazel and Luke Bryan and Luke Bryan actually spoke to me!), I took Cayle fishing for the first time with Daddy and my brother, and so much more! I can't even think of it all!

Ryan and I are still crazy about each other. I met his mother a few weeks ago. She was so fun to be around. And she loves Cayle! She even came up with a nickname for Cayle to call Ryan (Ry Ry). She even stopped by to say hi to me at work, and according to Monika (she knows Ryan's mom) she never stops to talk so she must like me. He was even sweet enough to think of me on Mother's day and bought me one of my favorite chocolate treats. He's meeting my family on Memorial day weekend at our annual cookout. I'm excited but nervous. Mom seems to like him from what I've told her about him. And Dad hasn't said much but Ryan reminds me a lot of my Dad so I think they'll really hit it off.

Mother's Day was so great! Daddy made mom and me breakfast, "Cayle" got me a new charm for my pandora bracelet. It says "Loving Mother" on it. He also got me a collection of Elvis movies!! I have a new obsession with Elvis Presley lately. Not too sure why. I just watched one of his movies the other night and I fell in love. I got Mom a gift certificate to her favorite makeup place and a cd she's been wanting. Then Cayle kept saying he wanted to go fishing so I went out and bought him a pole. Daddy and I walked him down to the lake behind my house and took him fishing. He caught three little fish. He was so proud! And so was I. Daddy made the moms dinner on the grill and it turned out to be a very relaxing day with my family.

I mentioned earlier about going to a few concerts over the past month. I went to go see a band I grew up listening to called Sister Hazel. They played at Rhythm and Brews downtown and I HAD to go! I knew every song they did and I couldn't help but smile. They sounded exactly like they did 10 years ago.

Anyone that knows me (or pays attention to my facebook page) knows that I am madly in love with two men. One being the actor Channing Tatum and the other being the country artist Luke Bryan. Well guess who got to see Luke in concert!? Yours truly. I was so excited!!!! He played downtown at Track 29. I camped out in the sun all day to make sure I got a good spot. But baking in the sun came with a price..after 7 hours in the sun waiting for the doors of the venue to open I rushed to the very front. Center stage. 5 feet away from the stage. While waiting for the show to start...I pass out from dehydration. I wake up and two security people are carrying me away from my spot. I kept trying to insist that I was fine and To put me back in my spot but they sat me in a chair outside and got me water. They promised that they would get me my spot back. They walked away to go take care of something..and about the time they walked away....LUKE BRYAN came out of the door right next to the chair I was sitting in! My eyes got HUGE. He looked down at me and asked "Are you ok?" I guess I looked pretty rough. I managed to squeak "Yeah I'm better now". And he smiled and walked on to his bus. I was in complete shock. I guess I was in the right place at the right time. That will more than likely never happen again but I'm happy I passed out as odd as that was to say. And i did manage to get my spot back center stage. And after the Luke concert Ryan and I watched the meteor shower snuggled up on a big blanket outside in his back yard. I'd say this summer seems to be very promising.

I am trying to really embrace life now that I'm not working a ridiculous schedule anymore. With that being said I am going to see a group that were on my bucket list to see. They're called Celtic Thunder. They're a group of men from Ireland who sing Celtic Folk music. I managed to get a seat really close. I am four rows back stage left. This show is in Knoxville but it's not until October, but it'll give me something to look forward to this summer.

This Summer Cayle and I are going to really embrace everything. I wanna take him to fire works, baseball games, fishing, parks, whatever I can to create memories. Making the move from Regis to Salon Monika was probably the best move I could've made. I am so much happier for one thing. And so is Cayle. He's even said "I'm so glad you're home mommy". I was scared to do it because of the cash flow and leaving what was comfortable, but it turned out to be a great thing. Now I feel like I can really go far.

This is who I am going to see in the Fall.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=D0KZjmiL7xs

Things are changing..

I just celebrated my 21st birthday and boy was that fun! I got a spray tan, my nails done, and treated myself to a little shopping. My parents took me to dinner. My boyfriend, Ryan, took me to lunch. One of my best friends treated me to drinks. I got 2 new charms for my pandora bracelet and several birthday cards. I'll go ahead and say it. I don't remember much after getting to the Honest Pint. But I was sure to have a DD and I was completely safe about it. I do remember puking my guts up 3 times though.

Cayle's Easter basket is complete. I can't wait for everyone to see it. It has all of his favorite things in it. I also decided to get his picture made with the Easter bunny one day this week.

I have some major news!! I have 2 interviews this week on the same day! Both of the managers called me from Sports Clips asking me to come in. I'm excited. They pay more than Regis does. The only downsides are that I'm leaving my friends at Regis and the clientele I have. But to be honest..I have to go where the money goes. I'm not making enough. There are too many people at Regis. And my schedule sucks to be frank. I'm really going to take my time and find out about this one. I don't want to go from bad to worse. Sports Clips isn't my ideal salon but I'm keeping an open mind and hoping this will be my ticket out of Regis.

I have not mentioned to anyone about the boyfriend. We've been dating officially for 2 months, but I've known him since July of 2012. We talked on and off and back in October I txted him spur of the moment and told him that I missed him and wanted to hang out..we've been together almost every weekend since then. Cayle has met him a couple times and he really likes to play with him. Ryan is 28, has his own house, a car, a job, and things keep getting better for us. He has yet to meet my family, but keeps hinting that he wants to. So we will see. I'm in no hurry for anything of course but I'm definitely happy to have him.

Wish me luck on my interviews!

A lot going on for Cayle.

I haven't been still long enough to post to this thing..and I really should make more time to blog! But Cayle and I have been busy busy! I took him to Chuck E. Cheese for the first time last week. Mom went with us. It was actually really nice to have her with us. She liked helping Cayle play the games. We ended up winning 300 tickets, but we are saving them for our next trip. Things there have changed so much since I was a kid. The cleanliness and customer service are so much better.

Cayle has successfully made the transition from crib to toddler bed! He just decided one night he wanted to sleep in what he calls "Cayle's bed" and didn't think twice about it. And he's really good about staying in bed all night. Now if only potty training was that easy! In order to give him more space in his room...I put his crib on craigslist..and it sold really fast. It's happy but sad. My baby is growing up on me. He's the only one I'm ever going to have (that I'm planning on). I try to hold on to every moment together because once it's gone..it's gone. The lady is coming to pick it up Saturday I believe so hopefully that goes well.

Easter is coming. I'm contemplating having a picture done with the Easter bunny. What do you guys think? I have to make Cayle's basket too. Not too sure what to put in it. I'm thinking about keeping it simple. He likes things like stickers, bubbles, hot wheels, jelly beans, crayons. I'll look and see what I can find.

I've always been crafty. But I'm thinking about starting to make wreaths for the door abd either giving them away as gifts or selling them. I can make them for next to nothing and turn around and sell them for double what I spent on making them. Cayle could even help me.

I think I've settled on a car. Who's to say my mind won't change. But I've narrowed it down to a Chevy. Either an Equinox or a HHR. Daddy is taking me test driving this weekend because I am so tired of not having a clear idea of what I want. We will just have to see!

This month is going to be soooooo long :/

Cayle and I have been doing well. I try to spend every moment I can with him. We went to the park by my house the other day since it was pretty. And Tuesday we spend the day shopping. Normally Cayle doesn't like to go shopping but this time he was all for it. I got him a monster truck toy and I got some clothes for work. I'm trying to focus on wearing more dresses this year when the warm weather hits (which I am dreading). But I think the dresses will help. I found several. Including the one I wanted to wear for my birthday.

This month at work will be the death of me. It's customer appreciation month. I will be working 62 hours every other week. And I HATE it. I am so fed up with Regis I could scream. I'm tired of not being home at night with my baby. I'm tired of not having a flexible schedule. I'm tired of not making commission because she has too many people. I could work somewhere else and make way more money. It's just a matter of finding my fit.

"My Teenage Dream Ended" by Farrah Abraham.

I broke down and bought this book 2 weeks ago. As most of you know Farrah was one of the stars of the MTV show Teen Mom. I have a strong connection with Farrah's story for multiple reasons. One being that Farrah is very independent. She keeps pushing herself and trying to do the best she could for her daughter. Another being that she wanted to move far away to really spread her wings with her child. Both are very important to me. Her book really goes beyond what you saw on the show. I definitely recommend it to anyone looking for a good read. It made me really think about how I have so many goals and dreams and how I want to work my butt off to make all those dreams a reality. Moral of the story being dreams don't die; new ones are created every single day. Things might now turn out how you see them but everything has a way of falling into place, and if you keep pushing yourself and have your eyes on the prize eventually you will get there. And it just really inspired me to keep going. And trying my hardest to make the best possible life for me and my son. I loved reading this book and really hope someone I know reads it too.

Valentine's Day

Today was a really good Valentine's day! This morning Cayle and I got up and I made our breakfast. I gave him his Valentine. I got him a card, a TY beanie baby, a book, some candy, and "Be My Valentine Charlie Brown". He was so happy with it. Daddy got me a dozen roses, some Hershey kisses, a card, and a new charm for my Pandora bracelet. Mom got me some new socks with animal print on them. I was so spoiled.

I went to check out the Childcare Network today. And it was a nice daycare, but apparently they do not offer just one day a week. So that kind of ticked me off a little bit because I'm back to square one as far as finding someone to keep him while I go to work on Mondays. My cousin is an option, but I really want him to get to be around other kids and to learn. So we will see what happens.

I've decided to really try to work with Cayle on potty training. I've tried in the past, but he wanted no part in it. So I figured he would try when he felt ready, but he hasn't felt ready. So I went to Walmart to today to get some things to give him a step in the right direction. I got a new potty seat that goes on the toilet in the bathroom, some gold stars for a potty chart, and some big boy underwear. Both the potty seat and the underwear have Disney Cars characters on them so I thought those would be perfect. And sure enough when we brought it home, he wanted to sit on the potty. And he did for about 15 minutes, but no luck with actually getting him to go. It's a start at least. I also got him some books from the Dollar Tree to help him learn to write his letters, identify shapes, colors, and numbers. He already knows all of these things but I don't see anything wrong with doing some lessons during the day.

Tonight we went to dinner with Mom and Daddy to a Mexican place. Daddy surprised me with my charm to my bracelet. I love it! All in all, it was a good day. Here's some pictures from our today!