Geeze. Perfect timing.

So over the past couple of months I've been having episodes with my stomach. I have such bad pains I cant even move sometimes when I get them. Well, the other day I woke up doubled over in pain crying (and I NEVER cry) because my stomach was hurting so bad.It lasted for over two hours. I went to the doctor and I found out I have a bacteria in my stomach acid called Helicobactor pylori bacteria. Basically saying that if I don't get better I'm going to get a stomach ulcer. I'm on 3 different medications for them and on a very strict diet. I can't have fried foods, spicy foods, acidic foods or beverages [ orange juice, apple juice, etc..], caffeine, carbonated drinks, or chocolate. Right around Christmas.?! Are you kidding me.?! That's like the ultimate bag over the head punch in the face. It sucks, but hey, I'm sure an ulcer is about twenty times worse. On the plus side, Adam took me to buy my Christmas presents.! I got a bunch of new clothes and for the first time in a long time, I feel pretty. :) We even went to applebees. That was fun too. Our waiter was really cool. It's 12:11 christmas eve.!!! Ahhh.!! It's finally here.!! Today and tomorrow are gonna be good days. I'm determined to make them good days. With no stress. [stress keeps this bacteria active.] I can't wait to give Cayle his presents. I wanna see his face light up.! I hope he likes them all. I did what I could for him this year. But I promise, there's a lot of love behind it all. I dont have much money, but I'll gladly give up a night out to get him something for Christmas, but hopefully this is the last Christmas where money will be a struggle. My new year's resolutions are to get down to a size 9 and to finish school by october. To also try to move out, and buy a new car by 2012. I want a black mazda. Yay.! I'm determined to make something of myself. And of course, I wanna keep being a good mom. :) I really hope everyone likes what I got them for Christmas. Let the festivities begin.! Merry Christmas.!

A little bit of everything. :)

Last night was so much fun. Adam, Cayle and I met up with Christina, Chris, and Grace for our first annual Christmas dinner. We went to applebees. We both bought thr babies presents..and ended up buying them the same thing and wrapping it with the SAME wrapping paper haha. We sat and talking for a while and enjoyed dinner. The babies were sharing their snacks with each other. It was so cute to watch. At the end up dinner we gave the babies their gifts. They got animals for their little people noah's arks. Cayle hasnt stopped playing with the animals. However, he is missing a zebra. After dinner, we went to walmart to get some christmas stuff. Adam's idea. We got Cayle a stocking for his house, cookie mix, icing, and gliiter glue pens. We decorated Cayle's stocking with the glittle glue pens and wrtoe his name. Then we made cookies. We made peanut butter ones, chocolate chip, and sugar cookies. Then we decorated them with red and green icing. Too bad we ran out of time to decorate the tree. We're going over there tomorrow so maybe we can then. Adam's family was even talking about getting Cayle an ornament for their tree. It made me really happy to know they consider cayle family already. As far as the wedding planning is going We found our reception area and have decided on our cake topper and cake idea and our date is October 1st, 2012. We've also picked our wedding bands. :) We're both excited to spend this Christmas together as a family. This is our first Christmas actually together. December 13, 2009 was the day we met. It's been a year. And in all honesty..2010 has been the best year of my life. Not only have I gotten to see my beautiful baby boy grow..I've had a wonderful man to witness it and share it with. I'm so thankful for them both. I don't think I could live without them...no..I know I couldnt. I would die. We'll see what this christmas holds. I can't wait to see Cayle's face light up. That will be the best thing about Christmas for me.

Hmm..

Well, I found my dream wedding dress, and I'm going back for it in january. Adam and I have decided to get married in 2012 instead of next year. Financially it will be better for us. I can agree with it. Also, we are planning on paying for the wedding ourselves. Just when I thought things were going to get better with my mom..she proves me wrong. She really hurt me while wedding dress shopping with my soon to be in laws. The dress I want is white. And its no secret that I'm not a virgin. she asked the lady taking care of me "Does this dress come in ivory.? We already have a baby so there's no sense in getting a white one." Right in front of everyone..I went right back into my changing room and wanted to cry. She doesn't watch what she says and I think that hurts the most. So therefor, I'm not gonna keep setting myself up for disappointment from her and just not expect anything from her. On another note..I'm SICK of school. I love doing hair, but I HATE the schooling. Its boring and all I do is sit there day in and day out. I hate it. I wish I could just quit and do somethign else. But there's been a lot of money put into this. I guess I'll just have to deal. But seriously. I dread even going. I have a lot of my christmas shopping done. About 95% of it actually. I dunno...I'm just ready for a break. From everything.!!! I got Adam moved back to his grandmothers house and he seems pretty happy there. SO hopefully things will work out for us. We'll see I guess.

Holiday Crafts

Today was craft day for Cayle and me. We made turkeys, reindeer, and Santa out of his hand prints. At first he seemed to like it but after a while all he wanted was a nap. You can't see Santas beard all that well, but hey we try. I have a lot of ideas for crafts for christmas. Like making candy cane reindeer. And Popsicle stick reindeer. Thumb print christmas mice, and ice cream cone christmas trees. Somehow. I'd like to make a countdown to christmas. I'm not sure how though. I'm so worried about juggling holidays. I thought it would work out, but now I'm not so sure. Adam's family is eating at one and my family usually eats at 2 or 3. How am I gonna do it.? I dunno. Ughh. I dont wanna disappoint anyone. I try to keep everyone happy. I guess we'll see how it all plays out. Black friday is this friday. I cannot wait to get out in all the madness. I kinda have an idea of what to get everyone but we'll see what I can find. 34 shopping days left.! I'm so ready for a break from school. and running like a mad woman. Haha. This saturday adam's sister and I are going to look at wedding dressed with our moms together. this is the first time my mom will meet any of them. Kinda crazy isn't it.? Hope it goes well.

Cayle's birthday part three.

Part three.?? Yeahh. This kid got three parties. The theme was dinosaurs and everything was in orange green and yellow. Adam's granddad even made cayle a dinosaur cake despite the fact he vowed never to do it again after his tremors got as bad as they did. The whole family was there. It felt like we fit in perfectly. Cayle got some little people, a piano, a firetruck that you sit and ride on, a puppy that lights up and talks, and so much more. It's amazing to think that they have been around him for almost a year now. His grandparents met cayle on valentine's day this year, and here we are almost Christmas and they're still here. It's wonderful. We ate pizza, cake and ice cream, and sat around and talked. I gave everyone hair cuts while I was there and they all turned out really good. Now We can focus on the holidays. I just hope juggling between families works out. I worry alot.

Hmm. :)

The holidays are just around the corner.! I think this year I wanna make handprint turkeys with cayle. It would be funn. We can give them to the family, and hang them on the fridge. Last weekend I went with Adam's sister Kayla to georgia to the carter's outlet to get Cayle some clothes. It was the first time we had ever spent time together without the family. It was soo much fun. She asked me to be a brides maid in her wedding. I've never been a brides maid before. She bought Cayle a onesie that said 'all i want for christmas is my auntie.' it was so cute.! I started my christmas shopping. I dont have much bought but I got some stuff. I got dad his favorite christmas story on Dvd. It's how the grinch stole christmas, the animated version. I thought that since he works so much he might miss it and he looks forward to seeing it every year. I bought adam some little things. Reeces pieces, green peppermints, and a shirt from rue 21. I would like to get him some cologne from there. This little butt went out and bought the thing I was going to get him for christmas. GRRRRRR. So I have to start all over with him. Lol. I'm not mad but geeezeeee. >.< Last night Christina and I took the babies out to the mall. We got some shopping done there. I was a little bad. I spent money on myself and bought some bath and body works lip gloss that I love sooooooo much. I always feel soo guilty for spending money on me. But I did manage to get Cayle some weebles for christmas. He's never played with them before, but I bet he will like them. I would like to find some little einstein dvds or something but who knows if that will go as planned.? I saw some footie pajamas I wanted to get cayle at walmart last night. They look like batmans outfit. They had a pair of toy story ones too. They were only 7 dollars so I wanna go back and get them.. Today is Cayle's birthday party from Adam's family. I can't wait. I'll post pictures later.!

Cayle's birthday part two.

Below are some pictures from his first party 10*30*10.






Cayle is having three birthday parties. How crazy right.? His first birthday party was Saturday and that party was for everyone. Tonight's party was strictly for the family. The last picture was taken tonight. This party tongiht consisted of Adam, Cayle, and me. Cayle and I woke up and the first thing I did was give him a birthday hug and kiss. After feeding him his breakfast we went downstairs and played with all his birthday toys. We shared my waffles too. After that we made a trip to walmart and got a few things. He saw a stuffed bunny (thumper) and reached for it. I got it off the shelf and gave it to him. He just hugged on it and loved on it, so I caved and got it for him. It's his birthday and I thought hey why not.? I try not to make a habit of getting him something every time we go out so he wont throw a tantrum when he's older and doesnt get something every time we go out. But this one time won't hurt. After our trip to Walmart we went to pick up dada from work. Adam was so happy to see him. We came back to my house to let Cayle play with his toys. And we played with him. He had so much fun. Later, we made him his birthday cake. Adam thought we should decorate it. So he wrote happy birthday cayle #1. I loved it. We played a little while longer, then I took adam home. This saturday is Grace's party. Adam, Cayle, and I got her a nursery set for her baby dolls. I hope she likes it. Next Saturday is Cayle's third birthday party. Adam's family is throwing it for him. I think it's extremely sweet of them to do that. I can't wait till the parties.!