FINALLY.!!!

So much has happened over the past couple of days but all good things. I actually made money off of doing hair.!!!! My mom's friend Arcella asked for highlights and I charged 15.00 and she gave me 25.00.! I know its not much but its definitely a step up from what I was making *ahem* nothing. *cough cough* And my sister gave me money for doing her hair a while back too. Easiest forty bucks I've made in a while. The pictures are the front and side view of Arcella's hair. I did the blonde highlights. My parents think I should start charging to do hair outside of school. Honestly, I think its a good idea, but I don't want people to feel like their getting ripped off because they're close to me or have known me forever and want free hair services. Dad thinks 10.00 a hair cut is hair and 15.00-20.00 is fair for color. But like I said..I don't want people to feel like they're getting ripped off. However, the prices seem fair to me. Arcella helped to build my clientele. She found three more girls that want their hair done by me.!! It feels great to feel like I'm actually getting somewhere with the hair business. But aside from all that my wedding planning is finally up and rolling. Adam and I sat down last night and looked for all sorts of ideas in our very own wedding planning book. Adam has picked his groom's men. His sister's fiance Josh is one and Christina's fiance Chris is the other. And Christina is my maid of honor (if she is still interested that is ;) ). Our ceremony will be held at Falling Water Church of God. Our rehearsal dinner is at Applebee's (mmmmm.!) Our reception is going to be at the indoor pavilion in Chester frost park. Our colors are dark purple and black. Calla lilies and white roses are my flowers. Adam has found his tux. I've found my dress. We've picked our brides maids and grooms men. Granted, there is still alot to decide but at least we've got it rolling. Today, we all went out to celebrate Adam's grandfather's (whom Adam refers to as his dad) birthday. We surprised him by bringing him to Logan's roadhouse for dinner. && I made him a cake. He was so surprised. I'm glad he enjoyed it. Happy 65th birthday bob.! On the way back to my house Adam and I started talking about possibly finding a rent to own house now and start paying on it. And beginning to furnish it. But keeping lights and water etc cut off until we actually move in. I thought it was a good idea and it might actually save us some money when we actually do get in. I thought after I get everything out of the way ( i.e. valentine's day, school supplies, health and beauty needs etc..) that I could start buying some things to furnish the house with..like towels and dishes and silver wear and things we wouldn't think to get until we actually got in the house. It seems like a good idea considering I'm having a steadier cash flow these days. I get paid 75.00 a week to keep house. Which seems pretty fair to me. It gives me enough breathing room each week and I'm stressing less about money. Poor Cayle has the sniffles. I feel so bad and I wish I could do something to make him feel better besides a hot bath and tons of TLC. I wanna actually make him forget he's got a cold and just be able to play. Maybe tomorrow I can renovate our room and clean it up really good. Dust and vacuum and put the toys away so that way the air is cleaner and he can get over his cold faster. Tomorrow Adam is coming over and I can't wait to give him his Valentine. I went traditional for once. Cards cheesy stuffed animal and chocolate. But I am getting him the psycho stick cd he wants later this week when I have some cash on my card. Its on amazon for pretty cheap. Soo all in all things are going well. I hope my little baby bumpkin gets better soon.

I think I need to take a minute..

..to talk about my little family. :) I'm so thankful to have everything I do. And for everyone in my life. But I have my own family and I want them to feel appreciated and I want everyone else to see how great they are. First I wanna talk about Cayle. Cayle is growing more and more every day. And never ceases to amaze me or to put a smile on my face. He knows how to make me happy when I'm sad. And always makes a hard night at school worth it. When I come home he rushes over to me and lifts his arms up for me to get him. And I do. I love his hugs and his kisses. I love every part of being his mom. I know we're gonna be close when he gets older. I wanna do everything I can to make him proud of me. I wanna do everything I can to make him happy. I love him more than words can describe. He is everything. I get so sad when I'm at school and all I wanna do is just go home and be with him. I wanna make very moment together worth remembering and I wanna do everything with him. I'm even thinking about making him a little garden for spring. You know..like growing a flower or some kind of veggie together. Lame I know but I feel like he knows what we're doing and he enjoys it. I try to do something special with him every season and holiday so we have things to look back on and some day in the flying car future he may share it with his own child/children. I'm truly blessed to have such a wonderful son. And I wouldn't take anything back or change a thing. I love you cayle.!

As for Adam..I know I couldnt ask for more. I've never been this happy in my life. He knows how to keep things interesting and does everything to make me smile. And it's little things like hugs and kisses. Or going to breakfast together. It's the time I spend with him that is so special. He claims Cayle as his own. And it takes a big man to do that. And I'm truly thankful and happy that we can experience cayle growing up together. I've never been this in love ever. I think our future together is very bright. I still get butterflies when I see him. I'm so glad he is my forever. We're best friends and lovers. I can't picture me without him. Cayle loves him. It shows. He always smiles and plays when he's around. Adam and I have been together for over a year now. And the spark is still there. I'm still happy. He does so much for me. I love our movie nights and cuddling on the couch and how he takes pictures with me and always makes sure I'm ok. He always calls to check on me at least twice a day. And never goes a night without telling me goodnight. He never goes a day without telling me he loves me. And I never go a day without telling him I love him. Our wedding is October 1, 2012. We got engaged october 2, 2010. I always try to keep in mind how blessed I am to have both of these people in my life.

I love my family. And this blog does no justice to how I truly feel. But I want everyone to know how great they are.

Well..

Today has been a very awesome day. This morning, Adam surprised me. He showed up at my house minutes after I woke up. He said he was taking us to breakfast..to one of my favorite places.! IHOP. MMMM.! We got Cayle his own plate of baby pancakes. He ate 3 out of 5 of them and bacon and egg. Hahah. Then afterwards we went to Walmart and I got some school supplies to hopefully I'll be organized and maybe like it a little more. I know its lame but being organized makes me happy and keeps me motivated. And we got Cayle a new carseat for Adam's car so now, we don't have to keep switching. That makes everything a little easier. Last night one of the girls did my nails for me. Acrylics.!!! I love them.! If I could afford it, I'd always have acrylics on. For sure. They make my nails look so healthy. Too bad they're expensive && highy matienence. I wanna do more to take care of myself. I feel so gross some days I can barely stand it. But thats just me I guess. Im very content right now. So hopefully it'll stay that way. :)

Why.??

Why is it so hard to like school.?? I don't understand. I LOVE LOVE LOVE doing hair, but I literally cannot stand school. I hate it. I don't have many people to talk to. I don't learn much of anything. I don't even get to do clients half the time. Its messed up.!! I'm just ready to be done so I can move on with my life. I've got better things to do than waste six hours of my life every night sitting around doing nothing. I keep on top of my school work. I make sure all my stuff is clean for if/when I actually get a client. I need some novels to take. It's so hard to find any that keep my interest due to the topics I enjoy reading about. "Raw" topics I guess are considered 'offensive' so no one writes about them as often as they do a sparkling vampire. Ha.! I hate twilight. I think another reason I dont like school is because half the girls there remind me of the 'mean girls' in that movie. Theyre blonde skinny spoiled and they think they're better than everyone. It makes me sick. Ughhh. I dunno. I just want things to be a little easier there so I dont hate it as much.

Heh..

So I just felt like posting to for no apparent reason..just to get everything off my mind I guess. School has been rough. Last Thursday was the worst. I had a client who wanted a roller set and her hair would not curl for ANYTHING. I felt horrible..like I'm not cut out for hair dressing. And a lot of the other girls make me feel like CRAP. They're so thin and snobby and yet they're gorgeous and I feel so plain standing next to them. Sad but true. I'm sick of doing hair and not making tips off of it. Granted..thats not what its about but at least when I make a dollar or something it lets me know I did a good job. And I dont even know how to make small talk or to start conversations with people. I get so concentrated doing their hair I completely forget to say anything. And to make things worse..I think someone stole from me at school..not money surprisingly..but finger nail polish. Pardon my French here but why the hell would you steal nail polish.???? Its two freaking dollars a bottle.!!! If you're that bad off I feel sorry for you to be honest. Ugh.! I'm not mad about what's missing. I'm mad about the fact it is missing. The one thing I cannot stand is a common theif. And half these girls at school are spoiled little rich girls and their daddies give them everything and anything they ask for. WTF.!!?!? I just really dread going..but even though I hate it..i stay every night and I do my class work. I know it's the only way I can get my life to fall into place. I want to be able to provide for not only myself but my family. I wanna be able to have my dream wedding and be able to fall asleep with Adam every night and wake up with him every morning. I wanna be able to buy my dream car (dodge charger). I wanna buy my own house. I wanna give Cayle amazing birthdays and Christmases every year. And I just feel stuck in hair school. Thats it..stuck. I dont even know what to say about it anymore. I don't get enough practice..and I just go to sit there. I need some motivation..or at least a reason to like it. I love doing hair but the school is crap. The end. Felt good to rant about that. I think I need more books to read..but I like to read about 'raw' topics i.e. drug abuse/addiction, LGBT books, eating disorders, mental disorders, suicide..etc. And not many books are out there like that. My favorite authors are Julie Anne Peters and Ellen Hopkins. And I can't find any books that honestly amount to theirs. Any suggestions.? You know what I've noticed.? It's easier to be friends with people who have kids or that have an extreme passion for them. I have to let go of several friends who don't get it. And one who makes me extremely mad. We were friends for six years and after I got pregnant I saw less and less of her. And every time I try to say 'lets put in the effort and be friends' I never hear from her. And I just got fed up with it and I havent heard from her in well over 6 months. Last time I saw her she wanted a free hair cut. Cayle was eight months old. He is now 14 about to be 15 months old. I don't txt her. And I deleted her off my Facebook. And she hasnt even noticed.I wanna lose weight..and I need a fun way to do it. Like a dance video game or something. I know it sounds lame..but I think the Michael Jackson wii game looks like fun. Too bad I cant afford it. Ha. Maybe for my birthday...too bad its in March. I took Cayle to the park today. This kid LOVES the slide.!! He had so much fun. Too bad it was crowded. Ah well.. vbdfjbvfkfk;l that is all.

Gatlinburg and Our one year anniversary.

My weekend in Gatlinburg was pretty relaxing. Thursday night, Adam stayed the night so we could head out early the next morning. Friday morning, Dad, Adam, Cayle, and I headed up to the mountains. One the way there, we stopped at crackerbarrel and had breakfast. Cayle wasn't used to having Adam around all the time (because we live so far apart we only see him on weekends.) but he was excited to have him there to play with. We stopped at the airport in Knoxville and picked up my older brother Zac and his wife Amy. This was their first time meeting Adam, and they seemed to really like him. When we finally made it to the cabin it was GORGEOUS. There were 6 bedrooms, 8 bathrooms, a gameroom, a hot tub, spacious living room(s) and a kitchen. We unloaded everything and relaxed for a little while then headed to the grocery store to stock the fridge. We got tooo much food. But we were planning on a big dinner the next night filled with steak, scallops, and crab legs, baked potatoes too. By the time we got back, Mom and my brother Garrett and his friend Hunter had made their way to the cabin. So that night we all went out to dinner at No Way Jose's. Its a mexican place right next to the aquarium. After that, Adam, Cayle, and I walked around the shops. I got a hat. And Adam and I played games in the arcade. The next day we all went to breakfast at the applebarn and went shopping. That night Adam and I rode go carts in the FREEZING cold, and I got Cayle some clothes at carters. We had our big dinner that night and after Cayle went to bed Adam and I cuddled up in front of the fireplace and watched a movie. That was our nightly thing while we were up there. On our last day there we made a big breakfast and went shopping. Adam, Cayle, and I got our first ornament made. It was a glass blown ornament and we got our names on it. Then Adam, Garrett, and Hunter played laser tag. We all went to dinner that night at Fuddruckers (yes thats the name.) Then we packed up and went home. I had a lot of fun. And I'm so glad Adam got to come with me. It wouldn't have been that much fun without him. He wants to come back with us next year.! Last night was my one year anniversary. It was a good night. We went car hunting and Adam found a dodge neon 2003 that we both loved. He's going to go talk to someone about it on Monday. I hope all goes well. When we got back I cut his hair and we watched a scary movie. We had a chicken parmasian (sp.?) dinner and cuddled up. It was wonderful. And he really liked his present too. I'm so so happy. I can't wait to get this wedding buisness up and rolling. I've hardly has time to look at anything. But my mother in laws have gotten my boquete put together. Black and purple canna lillies.

Here's everything lately. :)

I know I dont post as often as before. I've been very busy lately it seems. Christmas was fun. Cayle got a wagon and his first adventure in the snow. He got tons of stuff actually, but his big present was the wagon. Adam and I spent new years eve together. And we kissed at midnight. Just like our very first kiss last year. The sparks are still there. :)) Our one year anniversery is in a few weeks. I've never had a relationship last this long on-going. I'm very happy. We bought our wedding guest book a few nights ago. It's really pretty. I'm going to attach some purple ribbon to it later on when wedding prep is in progress. I'm helping his sister with her wedding prep. I'm her maid of honor. I've never been a brides maid let alone a maid of honor. On a side note I've been out of school for about a month now due to the moving of the school. && thank GOD for that. I'm so buirnt out on school I can hardly stand the thought of it. On a side note.....Adam is going to gatlinburg with me and my family. It will be me, cayle, dad, mom, my brothers, my younger brothers friend (possibly), and my older brothers wife (who's also a hairstylist.) I'm so excited I can hardly stand it. I've never had a boyfriend come on vacation with me. And I'm excited that Cayle, Adam, and I will all be together. Gatlinburg is fun. And since Adam is coming, we can do more as a family. Like the ripley's aquarium and the applebarn. :) This is also the first time my brother and his wife get to meet him. So hopefully everything goes according to plan. I can't wait. I'm going to take tons of pictures.