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So I just felt like posting to for no apparent reason..just to get everything off my mind I guess. School has been rough. Last Thursday was the worst. I had a client who wanted a roller set and her hair would not curl for ANYTHING. I felt horrible..like I'm not cut out for hair dressing. And a lot of the other girls make me feel like CRAP. They're so thin and snobby and yet they're gorgeous and I feel so plain standing next to them. Sad but true. I'm sick of doing hair and not making tips off of it. Granted..thats not what its about but at least when I make a dollar or something it lets me know I did a good job. And I dont even know how to make small talk or to start conversations with people. I get so concentrated doing their hair I completely forget to say anything. And to make things worse..I think someone stole from me at school..not money surprisingly..but finger nail polish. Pardon my French here but why the hell would you steal nail polish.???? Its two freaking dollars a bottle.!!! If you're that bad off I feel sorry for you to be honest. Ugh.! I'm not mad about what's missing. I'm mad about the fact it is missing. The one thing I cannot stand is a common theif. And half these girls at school are spoiled little rich girls and their daddies give them everything and anything they ask for. WTF.!!?!? I just really dread going..but even though I hate it..i stay every night and I do my class work. I know it's the only way I can get my life to fall into place. I want to be able to provide for not only myself but my family. I wanna be able to have my dream wedding and be able to fall asleep with Adam every night and wake up with him every morning. I wanna be able to buy my dream car (dodge charger). I wanna buy my own house. I wanna give Cayle amazing birthdays and Christmases every year. And I just feel stuck in hair school. Thats it..stuck. I dont even know what to say about it anymore. I don't get enough practice..and I just go to sit there. I need some motivation..or at least a reason to like it. I love doing hair but the school is crap. The end. Felt good to rant about that. I think I need more books to read..but I like to read about 'raw' topics i.e. drug abuse/addiction, LGBT books, eating disorders, mental disorders, suicide..etc. And not many books are out there like that. My favorite authors are Julie Anne Peters and Ellen Hopkins. And I can't find any books that honestly amount to theirs. Any suggestions.? You know what I've noticed.? It's easier to be friends with people who have kids or that have an extreme passion for them. I have to let go of several friends who don't get it. And one who makes me extremely mad. We were friends for six years and after I got pregnant I saw less and less of her. And every time I try to say 'lets put in the effort and be friends' I never hear from her. And I just got fed up with it and I havent heard from her in well over 6 months. Last time I saw her she wanted a free hair cut. Cayle was eight months old. He is now 14 about to be 15 months old. I don't txt her. And I deleted her off my Facebook. And she hasnt even noticed.I wanna lose weight..and I need a fun way to do it. Like a dance video game or something. I know it sounds lame..but I think the Michael Jackson wii game looks like fun. Too bad I cant afford it. Ha. Maybe for my birthday...too bad its in March. I took Cayle to the park today. This kid LOVES the slide.!! He had so much fun. Too bad it was crowded. Ah well.. vbdfjbvfkfk;l that is all.

Gatlinburg and Our one year anniversary.

My weekend in Gatlinburg was pretty relaxing. Thursday night, Adam stayed the night so we could head out early the next morning. Friday morning, Dad, Adam, Cayle, and I headed up to the mountains. One the way there, we stopped at crackerbarrel and had breakfast. Cayle wasn't used to having Adam around all the time (because we live so far apart we only see him on weekends.) but he was excited to have him there to play with. We stopped at the airport in Knoxville and picked up my older brother Zac and his wife Amy. This was their first time meeting Adam, and they seemed to really like him. When we finally made it to the cabin it was GORGEOUS. There were 6 bedrooms, 8 bathrooms, a gameroom, a hot tub, spacious living room(s) and a kitchen. We unloaded everything and relaxed for a little while then headed to the grocery store to stock the fridge. We got tooo much food. But we were planning on a big dinner the next night filled with steak, scallops, and crab legs, baked potatoes too. By the time we got back, Mom and my brother Garrett and his friend Hunter had made their way to the cabin. So that night we all went out to dinner at No Way Jose's. Its a mexican place right next to the aquarium. After that, Adam, Cayle, and I walked around the shops. I got a hat. And Adam and I played games in the arcade. The next day we all went to breakfast at the applebarn and went shopping. That night Adam and I rode go carts in the FREEZING cold, and I got Cayle some clothes at carters. We had our big dinner that night and after Cayle went to bed Adam and I cuddled up in front of the fireplace and watched a movie. That was our nightly thing while we were up there. On our last day there we made a big breakfast and went shopping. Adam, Cayle, and I got our first ornament made. It was a glass blown ornament and we got our names on it. Then Adam, Garrett, and Hunter played laser tag. We all went to dinner that night at Fuddruckers (yes thats the name.) Then we packed up and went home. I had a lot of fun. And I'm so glad Adam got to come with me. It wouldn't have been that much fun without him. He wants to come back with us next year.! Last night was my one year anniversary. It was a good night. We went car hunting and Adam found a dodge neon 2003 that we both loved. He's going to go talk to someone about it on Monday. I hope all goes well. When we got back I cut his hair and we watched a scary movie. We had a chicken parmasian (sp.?) dinner and cuddled up. It was wonderful. And he really liked his present too. I'm so so happy. I can't wait to get this wedding buisness up and rolling. I've hardly has time to look at anything. But my mother in laws have gotten my boquete put together. Black and purple canna lillies.

Here's everything lately. :)

I know I dont post as often as before. I've been very busy lately it seems. Christmas was fun. Cayle got a wagon and his first adventure in the snow. He got tons of stuff actually, but his big present was the wagon. Adam and I spent new years eve together. And we kissed at midnight. Just like our very first kiss last year. The sparks are still there. :)) Our one year anniversery is in a few weeks. I've never had a relationship last this long on-going. I'm very happy. We bought our wedding guest book a few nights ago. It's really pretty. I'm going to attach some purple ribbon to it later on when wedding prep is in progress. I'm helping his sister with her wedding prep. I'm her maid of honor. I've never been a brides maid let alone a maid of honor. On a side note I've been out of school for about a month now due to the moving of the school. && thank GOD for that. I'm so buirnt out on school I can hardly stand the thought of it. On a side note.....Adam is going to gatlinburg with me and my family. It will be me, cayle, dad, mom, my brothers, my younger brothers friend (possibly), and my older brothers wife (who's also a hairstylist.) I'm so excited I can hardly stand it. I've never had a boyfriend come on vacation with me. And I'm excited that Cayle, Adam, and I will all be together. Gatlinburg is fun. And since Adam is coming, we can do more as a family. Like the ripley's aquarium and the applebarn. :) This is also the first time my brother and his wife get to meet him. So hopefully everything goes according to plan. I can't wait. I'm going to take tons of pictures.