What an absolutely horrible day. :/

It may be a bunch of little things..but those little things add up. Cayle and I woke up awfully late..I'm talking 1 in the afternoon. And that ruined all my plans for the day. I go to make Cayle his breakfast..and I step on a piece of glass and pain shoots up all the way to my knee..so it's sensitive. Then I get ready to go to school..and I can't find my iPod...and I HATE the radio. Its bad music and trashy conversations. Notice I love a band that is NEVER heard on the radio. And I STILL have no idea where it is..unless Cayle hid it. He likes to play with it like a phone. I dunno..I hope I find it. Otherwise...I'm kind of..S.O.L. So I get to school..and it's a slow day. No clients. I HATE days like that. And it was fingerwaves and pincurls day..those are messy and seriously complicated. My stomach was hurting..so I left to go eat dinner with Alliea. And after about 1/2 a bowl of soup..I was full...and I had not eaten at all today..so that confirms my suspicions of having a SECOND stomach ulcer. I have all the signs now. And considering I just got over in in December..I'm pretty upset. And even more so theres nothing I can do about it.
Remember that girl I wrote about a while back who only talked to me when she wanted something.? The one I confronted time and time again about her not putting any effort into our friendship and shooting down every effort I made.? Remember how I deleted her from my Facebook page and told her not to txt or call me anymore.? Guess who had the guts to send me another friend request on Facebook.?? That's right. So I dunno what I'm gonna do about that. About 95% of me wants to send a vicious message telling her that if she ever tried to talk to me again I'd hope she would bite the curb. And the other 5% wants to let karma do it's job. I'm sure karma can do a much better job than I can at making sure she gets what she deserves. I just hope I'm around when it happens. I want pictures. That sounds awful and so unlike me..but she's a BAD person. She's fake and she only talked to me when she wanted something or when her boyfriend/other friends were too busy. The last time I saw her she wanted a free haircut. Cayle was 8 months old then..he's 16 months old. About to be 17 months..what does THAT say.? I dunno. I'm just over it. And I wish I knew how to handle the situation.
Adam comes home tomorrow.!! Thank goodness this BS is OVER.! I got him a cookie cake that says 'welcome home adam'. I can't wait to give it to him. I hope he likes it. Pretty soon I'll be shopping for wedding stuff. I can't wait.

If you read all of this. Kudos. I complain too much.

How sneaky.!!

My in-laws to be threw me a surprise birthday party. I was out with Kay and Adam's grandmother, Martha, yesterday and Martha asked if I would mind cutting Bob's (adam's grandfather) hair tomorrow around 5:30. And of course I didn't mind so I agreed. When I got to their house today, I saw Adam's aunt Robin's car there..and again..I didn't think anything of it. I just figured she was there visiting. When I got inside everyone was there and yelled surprise.!! I had streamers and ballons, a present, cards, and a homemade cake.! I haven't had an actual birthday party since I was twelve. I was so happy. Kay had gotten me bath & body works. And it all smelled like lemon. MMMMM.!! Which was kinda funny because I had gotten her bath and body works to thank her for helping me with Cayle when he was sick. Martha and Bob got me a card and put 20 dollars in it. That was awesome.! The cake was soooo yummy. And after everyone ate we played cards. I actually did ok. Adam called while I was over there and apparently this party..it was his idea. But he denies it jokingly. I can't believe how lucky I am to have such great people in my life. I have such a wonderful boyfriend. And in-laws.
Adam comes home this weekend. I am soooo ready for it. Adam got me a really nice flat iron for my birthday. I can't wait till it comes in. He bought it off of amazon. And he wants to take me out for my birthday too. It'll be like a date. He said to be thinking of stuff I wanna do..but in all honesty..chattanooga sucks to the point of where I don't know what I wanna do..the only thing I really want are pictures of us outside. If anyone has any suggestions of FUN stuff to do in chattanooga that isn't crazy expensive and not one of the city's 'major' attractions please let me know. It can't be bowling either..I just got my nails done lol.
Kay and I found my maid of honor dress for her wedding. Its strapless and a chocolate brown color. I posted a picture of it. I'm really struggling with losing weight. I think it's because of my birthday and stuff with all the sweets. But no more fooling around. I'm going to continue to work out every night and I really wanna try hydroxycut to see if it will help me. I see it work for alot of people..so maybe I'm one of them. :)

My birthday.

Today was a really fun day. I got tons of happy birthday wishes. Christina and I went to get our nails done at a place called California Nails. They were cheaper than the salon we had originally planned on going to. We both got acrylics put on. Afterwards we went to eat at Olive Garden. It was realllllly yummy. Christina even bought me a cupcake for my birthday. It was Mickey Mouse. I love Mickey Mouse. Then we went into the craft store. I found photo boxes 3 for 5 dollars. It was too good of an offer to pass up. After that we went to maurice's. They make clothes in all sizes so I feel good about myself when I realized I LOST A PANTS SIZE.!! Yaaaay. :D I found a shirt and a pair of jeans I really liked. When I got home my parents had a cookie cake waiting on me. I love cookie cake. We went to o'charlies for dinner. And dad got me a dessert from the city cafe...and thats where things got a tad awkward. I ran into this guy I used to go on dates with..I hadn't seen him in years. I felt like I had just ran into a ghost. He was friendly..but I was thinking..uhhhh...what did I just walk into.?! But overall it was a good birthday..I am a little sad about missing adam..and him not being here..but he'll be home in a week thank goodness. I'm really lonely without him. Thank god for my friends. Tomorrow I'll be trying on dresses for Kay's wedding. I hope I won't be disappointed or self conscious. Wish me luck.

I've been thinking..

Cayle and I haven't done any crafts since Christmas time. And i found this website with great ideas for every holiday of the year.! Including birthdays and april fools. Not that April fools counts anymore. Here Are some pictures of a few that I would like to do with Cayle for sure.! I think the older he gets the more fun we'll have with it. But as of right now it'll still be fun. Poor Cayle has been sick since sunday. He has a tummy bug thats been going around..and he was nice enough to share it with everyone else..including me. I threw up a total of nine times..poor cayle has thrown up 5. I wish I could make him feel better faster, but his pediatrician really knows his stuff. Cayle is definitely better than he was when I took him in. He is slowly getting his appetite back. But like I said before..keep him in your thoughts. Adam comes home next Friday. I'm so excited to see him. He's really starting to hate it down there. He said his internet has gone out 4 times in the past two weeks, there's no AC in the future academy, the team lead down there is a straight up witch, and traffic down there is AWFUL. Poor guy. Haha. My birthday is Friday.! And Christina and I are going to hit up the nail salon.! Hellooooo acrylics.! I'm so excited. I think I'm more excited about that than I am about it being my birthday haha. Then saturday Kay wants us to go try on brides maids dresses. She wants us to wear either brown or teal. I for sure want my bride's maids in purple. I love purple. As far as wedding planning goes. I think I want to make my own center pieces. I have so many ideas that I don't wanna pay someone to make them for me. Hoepfully Cayle will be feeling better within the next day or two. I know one things for sure. I'm ready to start doing these crafts. They're inexpensive and extremely creative. I'll post pictures when we start making them.!

Dr. Mommy.

Poor Cayle got sick today. He didn't want to eat much of anything today and that had me concerned..but then I figured maybe he wasn't hungry. Later today we met up with Kay and went to a few shops to kill some time..and on our way to the mall Cayle started coughing. Then..boom. Vomit everywhere. It broke my heart. He looked so pitiful. I was freaking out. I was trying not to cry and trying to get him clean. He was trying not to cry too. Kay she was so helpful. She got him out of his car seat and stripped him down and we wiped his face and the carseat down and pulled into a walmart. She got out and got him some wipes and a carseat cover and some water. I tried to offer to give her the money back but she wouldn't take it. She just helped to clean everything up. And it takes a true friend to help you clean up baby vomit. I can't thank her enough. It really made me appreciate the friends I do have who have been here for me through everything. I wanna thank kay by taking her to lunch or something for helping me. This isn't the first time she has. I'm taking Cayle in tomorrow to get checked out and I hope they can give me something or point me in the right direction at least as to whats wrong with him..I know I'm probably worrying alot but I just want to make sure he's okay. I'm a mommy and it's my job to worry. I'd like to get him a new book or something to make him feel better. One we can cuddle up and read since he isn't feeling too good. I'm going to sleep in the nursery with him tonight so I can be near him in case he gets sick again. Keep him in your thoughts. It looks like pedialyte is going to be a friend of ours for a few days.

What a day.!

I went to school this morning and I had FOUR clients.!! FOUR.! The first lady liked to keep a garden. She was really sweet. She tipped me five dollars for a partial wet set (rollers placed in the hair form the ears up.) She was very pleased with it. After that I had a manicure. The paint was a little clumpy, but it turned out okay for the first one I've done in forever. I don't mind manicures, they just take a while and they my hands tend to shake when I'm really concentrating. But she tipped me four dollars. Then I had another lady (she was my favorite.!). She was a little old lady who wanted a roller set. She was just as patient as I was. Sometimes hair doesn't want to cooperate. But after a little product it finally laid. She was so grateful and so happy with the results, and THAT right there is the whole reason I do what I do. I love making people happy. She even said she was coming back to me. And when I leave school she said she would come see me as long as she knew where I was working. I told her unfortunately Im be moving to knoxville, but if things change and I stay here I'd let her know. She tipped me twice she was so happy with the results. I wish I would've gotten a picture, but not many of my clients are interested in roller sets. I do mostly cuts and color.! Haha. After she was through my friend from high school came to see what I could do.! I gave her a fancy updo.! And she was really pleased with it. Shes a massage therapist in training so we can be each other's guinea pigs.! Also..my school is hosting a hair show at the comedy catch in April. And I will be doing hair and presenting it on stage. All the money coming from the show and donations will go to cancer patients to buy them new wigs and hair pieces and hats. If you're interested in coming let me know and I can give you more information. I'd love to have friends come support me.!

I wish..

I felt more like hair stylist. You know.? Well..when you think of hair stylist what comes to mind.? Perfect hair. Stylish trendy clothes. Fit. Pearly whit teeth. And elite at making some one's hair amazing. I can do hair don't get me wrong..but honestly..I don't have the 'feeling' of being a stylist. I wanna dress up and when people see me I want them to say or think 'I bet she does hair.' I just don't know where to start. I asked for money for my birthday. Soo maybe that weekend I can get new tops and jeans to make me feel more like a stylist. So to speak. I guess I just wanna have that natural confidence you see when you look at a hair stylist in a salon and interact with them when you're in the chair..The only probably with that theory is..I feel so so so guilty for spending money on myself. Cayle may have everything he needs..but I feel like all my money should go to new clothes for him or a new toy or something..but it shouldn't go to me. Not only that..I'm going for this certain 'look' and everywhere I go..they don't have what I'm looking for or it doesn't fit right..or its freakishly expensive..I dont know what to do..I guess alot of it has to do with taking care of yourself..but somewhere in that you have to look the part. Any suggestions.?

Stole this from christina :) 10 facts

I thought this looked like fun so I figured why not.?

1. I haven't had red meat in well over a year now. I used to be a vegetarian, but I really didnt have time to cook a lot of vegetarian food so I had to add chicken and other white meat for the event of needing a meal on the run.

2. I love to take pictures of Cayle. I wish I had more pictures of us together, but since I'm always the photographer..its a little difficult.

3. I LOVE the holidays. It's my most favorite time of the year. And I am a black friday ninja. I once had to fight a lady for a gift. I dont remember what it was but it got ugly. Haha.

4. I love art. I took 3 art classes in high school and alot of my pieces were taken to the university for demonstrations. But since cayle has gotten older I dont have much time to do solo art projects so I do crafts with Cayle and scrapbooking instead.

5. I do hair to make people feel better about themselves. I believe happy girls are the prettiest girls. And if I can enhance outer beauty with inner beauty I will.

6. I love to jam in my car. When I'm on my way to school..its the shades..windows down..and loud music. I'm a nerd I know but heyy I like it.

7. Adam and I are getting married October 6, 2012. And our colors are black and purple. With a damask pattern. Calla lillies are the flowers. I love them.

8.When I dream, I dream BIG. And I work hard to meet my goals. I'm a very driven person. And I think that has something to do with me being a good mother. Besides the fact I dont have it in my heart to not be a good mommy.

9. I take a lot of pride in being a hard working mother. I don't feel like I meet my standards if i dont come home bone tired every night. And if I dont come home tired I beat myself up over it and make myself work out an extra 20 minutes.

10. I really like to keep this blog. I like to tell everyone about Cayle. I like to show him off and to rant when I need to. Its relaxing.

:)

Drama doesn't follow me..It rides on my back.

As if Adam being gone for the month and missing my birthday wasn't bad enough..they're saying they want him to move to knoxville to be a team lead. How screwed up is this.?? So even then..I'd have to stay in this one horse town..finish school a.s.a.p. and move up there to be with him..and in the mean time do a long distance thing. Here to his house is already an hour drive pretty much. But if I had to do a long distance thing.. I'm sure I could do it. Distance is only as far as you make it. I'd try to do school monday through friday..and friday night drive up there and stay the weekend. The only possible problem with that..is my mom. She tries so hard sometimes to run over me..and don't get me wrong..my mom and i are pretty civil for the most part..but sometimes she pushes me a little too far..she doesn't think its right to do a co-ed sleep over but whatever. Adam and I are getting married. I'm 19 years old. I am a legal adult. I have a child of my own. I practice safe sex. I'm pretty sure there's not much trouble we could get into. I think if/when I move up to knoxville..it'll be better than chattanooga. I HATE this one horse town. When it comes down to it..if I didn't have school I'd leave as soon as I got the word. It's NOT far from chattanooga so I can still drive in and see everyone. It's not that I don't like the people in chattanooga..I just dont like chattanooga itself. And being in a major city like knoxville will be good for my career as a hair stylist. Hopefully none of the moving will take place. But if so..i'll have to prepare myself I suppose. Ehhh. I hate where he works..seriously.

Soo routine..and one im about sick of.

I got to thinking today. Everything is kind of getting on my nerves. I feel like I'm left alone too much. Today..cayle played pretty much by himself and didn't wanna play with me for more than a few minutes. Dad was gone. Mom didn't have anything to say after I did her hair. My brother was off with my nephews..I dunno..I just get sick of being by myself so much. Granted, I saw Christina yesterday and Kay on Friday..but other than that...I'm pretty much by myself. I'm by myself at school..I mean there is this one girl there who talks my ear off..but you never know what to believe with her..and she always talks about herself. I mean..I make small talk but half the time there..I'm by myself. I do my assignments for the night and the rest of the time..I'm wandering around the school looking for someone to talk to. I'm home alone all day and by the time I get home at night everyone's asleep or almost asleep.. I dunno. I guess I'm just missing Adam. And realizing I am by myself too much. And I'm realizing even more how much I hate it..

I feel an ulcer coming on..

I really do..my stomach pains are intense..enough to make me vomit. I don't know what to do..Everyone has been snapping at me today. Alright day, horrible night. After Kay and I finished hanging out..my night went to hell. I really don't wanna say much..it's just nights like these I wish I could just pack up and leave and not tell anyone where I'm going. And I can guarantee If plane tickets were free. I wouldnt be here.

My heart's going to Georgia.

I won't see Adam for a month. And I've been pretty down. I've been crying a bit..and I never cry. I feel like my other half is going to be missing for a month. At least we got to spend his last night in town together. We went to hobby lobby to look at wedding stuff.We found alot of things we liked. He told me he's giving me 1,000 dollars when he gets back to buy some wedding stuff. Hopefully, if I budget it right. It'll get alot 60-70 percent of the decor and stuff. And possibly invitations. Invitations are expensive. Depending on where you go. So at least that's something to look forward to. I can pick our stuff out while he's gone. I'm gonna try to stay as busy as possible. We had dinner at this restraunt called little tokyo. We got to sit and talk. I was so happy to get to spend his last night in town with him. We even got to cuddle in the jeep and listen to music and stuff. When it came time for me to go to class..I cried my eyes out..I cried all the way to school. And teared up at school. I'm such a cry baby. I guess it'll be me and cayle for the month. It'll be nice bonding time though. With all thats been going on.. we could use it. Maybe I can take him to the park or for a wagon ride tomorrow if it's nice out. Saturday if all goes to plan, Cayle and I are going to rock city with Christina, Grace, her fiance Chris, and the little bun in the oven. They're turnign the waterfall green.! And making green fudge (not that i'm eating any. I just think it's cool.) It'll definietly get my mind off of everything. I have a big test on thursday. Wish me luck.

Sweet.!

Adam's aunt Robin asked me to perm (to permanently curl the hair using rods and a chemical) her hair today. I've never done a spiral perm on an actual person, however I have done a basic perm on my mannequin for state board. I did a spiral perm for her today. And it turned out much better than expected. She was really pleased with it..pleased enough to pay me twenty dollars when I had already been paid that morning for a hair cut. 40.00 pay in one day.? I could get used to this. Hahaha. Seriously though, it's great to get a taste of what it will be like when I actually get out there and start working on people who come in. And getting paid to do what I love. It cant get any better than that.! It doesnt look too shabby for my first go at a spiral perm. Tomorrow, Kay and I are gonna hang out. Not too sure what the plan is yet but I think we're doing lunch and going wedding shopping. I have to make another payment on my dress tuesday. I'll have it paid off by the end of next month. I really wanna get rid of some old clothes. I have NOOOOO room in my closet for anything. I guess I'll make a generous donation to goodwill. I know there are people out there that would kill to have a few new clothes. And it will give me closet space. :) Adam leaves wednesday..it seems like the time before he leaves time goes fast..and when he's gone..it goes so slow. I really don't know what I'm gonna do with myself..

Date night. :)

It wouldn't have been possible without Kay. She agreed to keep Cayle for a few hours so Adam and I could have a night for us before he goes out of town. And to show her my appreciation..I bought her her favorite thing..Starbucks. Haha. Adam and I went to Amigo's to eat. And it was soo delicious. I know I'm dieting so I worked out twice as hard tonight to make up for it. It was really relaxing to be able to have a meal and just talk. After that we went to the discount movie theater to see harry potter and the deathly hallows. And this part of the date made me sooo mad. These little 13 year old kids who thought they were big and bad because they get dropped off to go to a movie would not shut up for anything. They talked and talked and talked through the hold movie.!!! Adam and I finally got fed up because we really couldn't hear what was going on and we left. It sucks because we missed the ending. And I really wanted to see it. And the movie doesn't come out for another month and I rarely get to see movies as it is. Ugh. Stupid kids. But it was nice to get some alone time together. We always have fun. Tomorrow..I'm getting paid 20 dollars to cut some one's hair. How cool is that.?! Also I'm doing a perm tomorrow. I don't know if I'll get paid for it or not but still if I do..I wanna buy some wedding stuff. I've started working out. I have been for the past week and a half..I know its not long, but I can feel my body getting strong. I do the '30 days till I do' work outs at comcast on demand and earlier this week, I could hardly keep up, but tonight I hardly broke a sweat and I worked out for 45 minutes. I feel like that's something to be proud of. And I've only had 1 soda this week. Go me.! I'm gonna feel so good about myself on my wedding day (and Kay's since I'm her maid of honor) if i keep this up. I have 3 weeks (that'll be a month since i started working out, and i should see some results right.?) until Kay and i go to pick out the bride's maid's dresses. I'm very excited. I know this will pay off if I keep at it. And I'm very goal oriented so I will. Adam is getting me a webcam before he leaves so we can still talk and stuff. I'm excited. I've never used a webcam..but it can't be hard. Wish me luck on my physical fitness.

I know I posted once already but...

I'm posting again. I just worked out for 40 minutes. I found a great thing on tv its a '30 days till I do' trainer. Who speacializes in wedding dress bodies..and considering I have 7 months until my sister-in law to be's wedding I figured I better get a move on. I wanna look good for her wedding too. I KNOW I can do it. I'm working so hard to better myself on so many different levels. With hydroxycut, a healthy diet, and exercise I know I can do this. I will fit into a beautiful dress and be proud of how I look. I KNOW that I have to do this and that no one is gonna do it for me. I'm gonna lose weight while Adam is gone and he's gonna come home to a new girl. I'm gonna do this for me. I'm motivated. I don't really eat alot of fast food..except subway..That was my lunch today. Instead of chips..I got apples and a non carbonated beverage. I've started drinking more water too. I add crystal light packets to give it flavor. It helps me stay on track..Also..I've been taking a vitamin to help my hair and nails..and its linked to weight loss. I try to eat as healthy as possible anyways..but sometimes..I'm not so good about it. But This is something I'm gonna stick to. And since its warming up I'll try to be outside with Cayle more so I wont be sitting on the couch or something like that. I'm re-creating myself. Watch me turn into a butterfly.

The motivation I need to keep going.

Due to privacy reason I had to edit this some, but I got student of the month.! I was so proud to see that. I wasn't expecting it. But I'm happy my hard work paid off. It gave me motivation to keep going..not only in hair school..but physical fitness. I'm starting to drink more water and eating subway instead of fast food. And I work out at night. And I'm gonna get my hydroxycut this weekend. :) I'm determined to do this for me. I was talking to one of my instructors tonight about how working in a salon and raising a baby would coincide. And she said that she had been a single parent for most of her children's life and she's worked at top of the line places like Hair Benders.! They're sooo demanding and so expensive. But now she works downtown. She said its all about finding a place that's willing to work with your time. And salons have a hard time finding people to work evenings. Evenings will more than likely be my schedule. Which makes it easy to find a job in the mall. At one of those salons. So we'll see what happens with that. Adam and I get a date night Friday night. Just the two of us. It's gonna be one of the last times we get to spend time together...considering he's leaving for Georgia for a month to set up a new Academy store. He'll be gone on my birthday..but I understand its a good opportunity for him. Hes getting paid good money for it. And I wasn't really planning anything for my birthday anyways..it still..it breaks my heart..to think I'll be without my other half for that long. It just hurts to even think of it..Crap..misty eyes.