I've about had it..

I'm under so much stress lately and today I just lost it. Trying to get everything together for Cayle's birthday isn't going well. I may have all the decorations, but I haven't passed out invites, gotten (or figured out) a big gift for him, figured out what to serve, ordered a cake, finished the blanket I'm working on for him, or worked on his scrapbook in MONTHS. It makes me feel like a pile of garbage.

And today was the last straw for me. My grandmother has been staying with us for the past week since she pretty much got booted out of her own home. She lives with my aunt now but wanted to come visit Cayle. But anyways she had the television blaring today when we got up. And she was trying to talk to me about something but I could not hear. So all I said was (and I quote) "I can't hear you over the t.v." I did not raise my voice. I was not grumpy. I was not rude. And for some reason that offended her so she packed up her things and left. Can someone please tell me what the hell I did that was so bad??

I had to drop Cayle off with my mom later that afternoon so I could go on to work. And apparently she had heard my grandmother's side of the story. Which was that I was yelling at her for having the TV up and that she wasn't trying to talk to me. So that pissed me off (pardon my French here..but I'm at a breaking point) and I just left for work and sat in my car until it was time for my shift. I pretty much just broke down and cried..

I know that I am lucky to have a job at a place so successful..but I feel like my schedule there has taken away a lot.. I work the night shift every night. I don't get home until after 9 every night. But I am on a completely opposite schedule as everyone else. I am home alone every day with Cayle. My friends are at work. My family is at work or school. Then when it's time for me to go in, they are coming home. When I get home everyone is in bed or going to bed..along with Cayle. So needless to say..I never see my friends.. barely see my family..barely see Cayle..that's heartbreaking. I've never felt so isolated.

Building clientele is proving difficult. Not only because it's a matter of getting my name out there..but because the walk-in clients are spread so thinly between me and about 3 or 4 others. And it's about to get thinner. Because my boss just hired another girl. I don't know what the hell she is thinking! Everyone's totals are down (meaning the service sales aren't as much as usual for everyone) so why would you hire someone else?? She has me and two others taking walk in appointments. We never have to turn away walk ins from being too busy so what the hell?! Which also translates to me not making more money any time soon which translates to possibly more time living at home..which I'm about over. I need my own space.

With work taking up all my time..my sad pathetic excuse of a room has gotten too messy. I have no time to clean. I'm too tired after work and waking up early to clean isn't exactly easy with how tired I stay. I am so lethargic it blows my mind. I have to pump coffee, tea, and soda into my system just to make it through the day.

I don't know what's wrong with me..I'm irritable, isolated, and unorganized I suppose..

Our annual trip to Rock City's Maze!

Today was my day off which is also our family day. And what a fantastic day is was! The weather was somewhat cool with a cloudy overcast but there was some sunshine here and there. We were some of the only people there. We managed to be lost in the maze for about 30 minutes or so. But it was so fun. I like to let Cayle lead the way. He gets us very lost and somehow we manage to find our way out just as easily. His favorite part was the hayride of course. And painting the "humpkin" as he calls it. Next week is Guthrie's Pumpkin Farm. Can't wait for that adventure!

Disney on Ice!!

I must say it was definitely worth the money! Cayle and I had a blast! I think I was just excited (if not more) as he was. There were pirates, crocodiles, princesses, fire works, music, dancing and more! I got Cayle a souvenir light and coloring book. I kept our tickets for the scrapbook and took over 160 pictures! We will definitely be going back next year. Next week is our trips to the corn mazes and pumpkin patches! Here are some pictures from tonight's show!

On a side note..I think I am going to have to re-think Cayle's large birthday gift from me...but I'm really not sure what to get him. I want it to be special..I don't have much time to think on it, but I just don't see him getting much use out of the battery powered four wheeler. Ideas anyone?

So VERY excited!!

Despite being sick for the past 2 weeks or so, Cayle and I are finally getting over this horrible virus that has been going around. And tomorrow is our family day. It's Disney on Ice day for one, and two who knows that the day will bring? I'm trying not to go too hard and heavy since he still has a lingering cough. But other than that he's well.

Today was a fantastic day! My sister in law sent a belated graduation gift. I got a new pair of shears for work! They were hers but she's had them cleaned, oiled, and sharpened for me! I got to use them today and those babies are worth their weight in gold! I also had a repeat client today!! That made me feel awesome. It was my client that does the ghost tours downtown. He is so much fun to talk to. And really sweet. The rest of the night was pretty slow. Clip for the cure is this Saturday if anyone is interested in coming out and supporting the charity!

When I got home mom said that she had something for me. It was the $300 that she promised me for graduating college and being completely finished with testing and everything. Plus..today was payday! I am one happy girl!

I got my Halloween costume. And I am going to be Miss Krueger. I'm a horror movie junkie lately and this costume is awesome!

Can't wait for Halloween! We will probably do the corn maze at Rock City next week. I can't wait. I'm going to attempt to get to Guthrie's as well! This is my costume!

What a sick, sick week.

I haven't been online much because I have been sick with a bacterial infection. My throat hurt, fatigue, aches, pains, nausea, the works. I even had to call into work Friday because I could barely stand. Now that I've gotten over it..guess who has a little sickling? This mommy. Cayle has picked up a viral infection so he's feeling pretty crummy. Hopefully he will get to feeling better in the next couple of days so we can FINALLY get into the spirit of Autumn.

I wanted to let everyone know that I got all of Cayle's party supplies! I am doing a Disney Cars theme like he wanted. The only thing I have not gotten are the party favors, center pieces, and the food of course. I am trying to decide on cake. I would LOVE a tiered cake but they are just so expensive! But I want this to be a nice party. There won't be many people this year since I don't talk to as many people and my family fights so I'm trying to avoid drama.

Cayle and I are going to Disney on Ice next week!! We have VIP seating!! I'm so very excited to be able to take him to something I think we will both enjoy. Daddy split the cost of the tickets with me. I was okay with not having VIP seating ($35 dollars a ticket) but he insisted so it was nice. I will definitely make a post about that.

I also got Cayle's Halloween costume. He is going to be a spider with a cute top hat. I LOVE it. It looks so cute on him!

I believe (weather permitting) that we will make our first trip to a pumpkin patch next week. Maybe make a big day of it with Disney on Ice that night.

Fall warms my heart.