Blogging about my day..

It was usual for the most part. My car is finally getting fixed..the downside is that I am only getting 55$ this week due to a stupid fight mom and I got into over gas..I need my 75$ a week. I dunno how I'm gonna make this stretch. Any ideas.? I'm just happy my car is getting fixed..thats another thing I can cross off my list. Hopefully its something simple. That's all I'm asking for. So I'll have a car by the end of next week hopefully. I really do. And..it's got almost a half a tank of gas so my first gas bill won't kill me. I really don't know how I'm gonna make that money stretch. I have some things I really need to get..and a few things I wanna get a head start on..and I don't see how it's gonna happen..I stress over money so easily. I guess it'll be ok. Needless to say..mom and I aren't talking..once again. You know..i'm sorry..but I need to rant for a second..But I am SICK and TIRED of feeling like the maid here. I'm tired of being alone almost 24/7. I wake up alone..I sit at school alone..I come home to be alone. If it weren't for Cayle..I'd probably go nuts. I'm sick of being snapped at when I'm doing the best I can do. I'm sick of nobody ever saying thank you. I've had it. I don't feel appreciated..and in a way..I feel like I've run my course at my house..You know.? And it's days like this that make me sooooo ready to move out..so I can come home to MY family and I can be with MY family. I can do family traditions I want. And I can do things MY way. It won't be long..and they will miss me. And they will see how much I actually do and how they'll miss Cayle being there all the time..and to be honest..it's days like today that make me think when I move out and they call asking to see cayle part of me wants to say 'we're busy.' or just flat out no. But that isn't fair to Cayle. I want him to have his grandparents in his life..but I hate the way they do me sometimes...it just really burns me up. You know mother's day they all went out shopping and didn't even ask if I wanted to go.? Is that really what I'm reduced to.? Sitting at home every day alone.?? It's really depressing..and some days I really feel like crying..I really don't mean to sound like a big baby or whatever...I just hate being left alone so much. It really gets to you after a while. I can't wait to have my car back..it'll make all this a little easier.

Mother's Day 2011.

What a fantastic mother's day.! This morning Daddy made the mommy's a waffle breakfast..and the boys cleaned the kitchen. So for once I didn't have to. Lol. This was the cake I made for mom for mother's day. I think it turned out pretty good. Cayle got me a card and some capris pants, but I have to exchange them. They don't fit. But they were nice.! Later, I went to Adam's and we made brownie sundaes. And the were delicious. Kay and I baked the brownies, and we put cookie dough in the bottom of the pan. Then put caramel and brownie mix on top. When they were done baking, we put ice cream and all sorts of sundae toppings with them. Adam got me a card for mother's day and wrote a sweet message inside. It's always nice to get something like that from him. Honestly, I prefer that over anything he could get me. He said for father's day he wants some new boxers. I can do that, but I wanna throw in a little surprise too, but I'm not quite sure what yet. I was thinking a picture frame with a picture of him and Cayle in it. I'm still thinking on it. Any ideas.? All in all, it was a good mother's day. But my little baby made it the most special for me. He's my best friend and I can't go a day without being with him or getting some hugs and kisses from him. He makes everyday worth it. And he makes me so proud to be a mommy. And honestly..no job is better than wiping faces, playing ball, and lots of love. I love being a mommy. I never knew life before it. And I can't imagine life without my family.

Girls..and baby's day out.!

This morning I woke up to a txt from Alliea asking if I wanted to go to run some errands with her before she leaves for a vacation to Florida. I haven't seen her in WEEKS and of course I wanted to. We went to lunch at El Meson. I had one of my favorite dishes in any Mexican place. It's basically grilled chicken, spanish rice, and queso. After that we went to Old Navy to find her some shorts for her family beach portrait. They had the cutest little boy clothes.!! After that, we went to the little debbie store and Walmart. I LOVE WALMART. And I've decided I want a picnic basket. I dunno if we'll ever use it, but I want it. 12 dollars...you can't beat it. I got a small picture frame for 5 dollars at walmart today, and Cayle's first Christmas present/ birthday present..I haven't decided yet. It's his first piggy bank. I kind of want to give it to him now. I have a lot of change sitting around and I think it would be good for him to have all the change. He has a couple of savings bonds. It would be a good idea to have it. Dad made me think about starting Cayle a college fund. And honestly, I think he's right. College is expensive. It'll be easier to do when I don't have so many projects going on at once, but he has a good start. Two 50 dollars savings bonds and change adds up after some time. I've decided to print off a list of all my projects and keep it with me so I can cross things off as I finish. We may have a clue to what's wrong with my car. It's leaking oil again. That may be it. But as far as getting it emissions ready..it'll take some time..we have a few bills this month. :/ But I'm getting off topic, After walmart we went to Gigi's Cupcakes and got two delicious cupcakes with mountains of buttercream frosting and chocolate chips. Mmmmmmm.! It was so good to have a day with her. I don't get to see her often, but she really is a wonderful friend.! I've been thinking about Cayle's 2nd birthday party..like themes and stuff..and to be honest..I'm a little stumpped. I want it to be unique, but simple, and have an awesome cake. I'm not much one for character themed parties..i.e. bob the builder etc.. I was thinking little monsters or a simple blue and green party, but I feel like monsters were too close to last year's party theme and blue and green is too simple for me..I'll keep thinking on it. Maybe I can check out a few websites too. Anywho, I'm gonna make a few lists of projects going on, christmas shopping list, and what I'll need for each project etc..and post it here...this is gonna be a long list.
Also, I have decided to learn how to cook before I move out. I have two major websites I go to to find recipes to try. Allrecipes.com and Familyfun.go.com both are great, however, I favor familyfun because there are crafts and other things too. Our craft box is full of supplies.! Pom-poms, craft sticks, googly eyes, pipe cleaners, and foam sheets.! I'm pretty excited about it to be honest. All in all, things are going well, just need to get everything organized.

10 pounds off my load.!

Today was great. I got paid for doing my house work. I paid my monthly tuition for college. And....I PAID OFF MY WEDDING GOWN.!! I am so relieved because now I wont have to think about it anymore. It stresses me out making payments on stuff. I always worry about being late and stuff. My usual client came back to see me today for her roller set. She is such a little doll. She tells me she loves me more than pound cake, watermelon, and elvis. I just love her. She always brightens my day. After school I made my weekly trip to Walmart. I know..it's dumb, but I look forward to it every week. I got mom's mother's day gift finished up. I got her some O.P.I. nail polish and a candle. I got her a card too. And I'm baking mother's day cupcakes. I'll post pictures when I finish them. When I go to Walmart..I get a lot of ideas for baking and christmas and house decor. I love it. I'm gonna compose a list this weekend of what I wanna get everyone. Last year I did a little of everything including gift baskets of baked goods. I know bath and body works is gonna be a major stop for a lot of the ladies on my list. I hope this year Adam, Cayle, and I can have a Christmas dinner with Chris, Christina, Grace, and Baby Brentley. It was such a fun night. I hope my mom likes her gift. She tends to stay with the same nail polish colors so I'm not sure if she will like these or not, but I got her a Tennessee Vols orange color for football season. She likes to paint her toes orange. I can borrow it for Halloween too with my black shatter. I love shatter polish. Heheh. I cannot explain the relief I feel that my dress is paid for. I'm so happy. The new pirates of the caribbean movie comes out in two weeks.!! I am sooooo excited. I'm half tempted to buy my ticket early. I don't care if I go alone or whatever..I wanna see it sooooo bad.
I wish I knew how to cook actual food..instead of microwave stuff. Brittney was telling me about allrecipes.com. I think I'm gonna sign up on it and practice. It's kinda like my little site where I get my food and craft ideas. But I wanna put a notebook together of recipes that are good, easy, and festive. I have so many goals, but in all honesty, it keeps me focused to have a lot going on like I do. And it's even better when I complete a goal. Daddy looked at my car today, we're still trying to figure out what's wrong with it. I wish we knew. But in time I suppose everything will work out.
It's been sooo chilly outside..and I absolutely love it. It makes me miss fall, but it makes summer bearable.
Cayle is talking a lot. I'm so proud of him. He says all kinds of things, and he loves to be outside. Which is good for him. If hes active he's more likely to stay healthy..right.? He's hooked on cookies though..it's his new favorite word. But with everything else..moderation is key. This weekend is gonna be very relaxing. I'm excited.

yesterday..

Yesterday was a good day. I finally got a bit of a break from being stuck at home during the day and went out with my nanny. We went to the little debbie store and to the dollar tree. At the little debbie store you can get snack cakes and granola and stuff half price if not lower. You can walk out with a full box of snack cakes for under twenty dollars.! I know thats a lot of snack cakes, but they're good for lunch and it doesn't hurt to donate them. They even have a full box of pie crusts for 5.00. You can't find deals like that any more..After that we went to the dollar tree. I got some more craft supplies, Cayle's first big boy tooth brushes, and some air fresheners. School was slow. But I made a 90 on my test..with 60 questions.! I did better than the rest of the class..as far as I know..the girls are all saying they barely passed or failed completely. So I guess I did pretty good..I take a lot of pride in making good grades and my hair services. I never really cared much in high school about being a straight A student..as long as I was passing I was happy. Most of the time I made B's...but math and I are sworn enemies. Haha.
Today wasn't too bad either. I had my first client in a few weeks. It was a man who works for the humane society. Eh. But he seemed pretty pleased with his hair cut. He wasn't a picky guy which made it easy. He tipped me four dollars. Which was pretty good considering the haircut was only six. Tomorrow, I'm gonna finish up my weekly house work, and nanny and I are going to Walmart. I love going to Walmart. It doesn't sound like much but it's nice to get out of the house. My car is still parked in my driveway. With all the bills going on right now and my family trying to save for vacation..my car has to wait. But as long as I have a way to school and to see Adam I'm okay with it. I LOVE how cool it was today. It was making me anxious for the fall. I have so many plans for this year. I wanna write them down so I can mark them off myself. Goals keep me driven.

What an absolutely HORRIBLE evening..

Okay..here it is..I need to rant and rave so I can get it all out of my system and leave it at that..again..it may be little stuff..but little things are like paper cuts..and they hurt the most..right.? Today at school I was eating my lunch..and the owner's wife Kristy was in the break room talking to our junior instructor Cindi about the devastation that has hit several cities. She asked me if we got hit and I told her "No, we were very fortunate and only lost power for a few days, and only had one tree limb in our yard." The conversation got into how we should do something as a school to try and help And I suggested a money donation or a canned goods drive..and she just snubbed it off like I had suggested we rebuild the entire town or something..and then suggested we wash victims hair free of charge...are you kidding me.??? These people have lost EVERYTHING including their cars and other means of transportation. How in the world are they supposed to get to the school in the first place.?? At least my idea was a bit more practical. The canned goods and money could go to something a bit more important than a hair wash. Granted, I'm sure these people would love a hot shower, but it just doesn't seem like they could come to us for it. However, I'm not gonna let it stop me from helping. I'm going to go through my old clothes and donate them and some cases of water or something. Anything I can do, because I could have easily been in their shoes. I could have lost loved ones or anything and everything I own..and it's made me realize how truly blessed I am to have a comfortable home, family, a few good friends, and the opportunities I do. Because it can all be taken away in the blink of an eye. But the point I'm trying to make is that I'm so SICK of people at school just blowing me off..it's been going on for months and months and I've noticed it more and more..so about 90% of the time I'm sitting alone at school..and it's really getting to me. And when the owner's wife does it to me..it pushed me over the edge. So I went outside and sat. Absolutely frustrated..not only that frustrating me..but Adam is thinking about moving in with two people from work..and considering how his last roommate situation turned out..I told him straight up that I thought it was a bad idea..and obviously he didn't wanna hear it blah blah blah..so that stressed me out..and the tears started coming..and I'm not even sure why. It wasn't a big deal..but it was embarrassing to cry at school. So I went and sat in my car until my face cleared up..then I went back outside and sat and I wanted to sit back against the door, and when I went to scoot over to the door...the palm of my hand went straight on a cigarette cherry. For those of you who have never heard that term..its the hot center of the cigarette that keeps it burning..so I was in extreme pain..at first I thought it was glass..but I was way off. Now I have a welp on my hand from where it burned me..so that sucked. And it still hurts. My ipod quit on me the other night..and I lost almost 200 dollars in music..it won't even hold a charge..It's frozen on the apple sceen..and I've tried everything I know to do..no luck..Thankfully enough..dad has the iPad and the iPod touch..and he gave me his iPod touch considering he never uses it and the iPad has more memory..and I'm thankful. I hate the radio more than anything..its a big pet peeve..but hey, if mean people, a welp, and a busted iPod is all I have to complain about..I guess I'm doing ok..I guess I just needed to vent. I feel a little better already. I just try to keep in mind how blessed I am..and that's enough to make me feel better..

Wow..

I've had a good weekend. Today Kay and I finished ALL of her centerpieces and more for her wedding..and she's even offered to let us use whatever of her stuff we wanted for our wedding..which cuts down ALOT of the buying..so in a way.. I kind of completed a goal. I only burned myself one time.! We were in a hotel for most of the weekend due to the storms..we lost power for 48 hours and I wouldn't have been able to feed cayle, or bathe him, or much else without power. I am so thankful that we only lost groceries..and things like that can be replaced..but loved ones, homes, and things of that nature are much harder to replace..my heart goes out to the ones who lost their lives, loved ones, homes, etc.. But it is so nice to see that there are people willing to help out and try to get the towns in living condition again. I would like to donate some clothes and baby clothes to the families who lost so much. I only wish I could do more. Saturday night, Adam and I made pizzas and cookies. We finally worked on our guest list.! We are estimating 75-90 people..being that this list is only a rough draft. Oh and this is an FYI for all who are invited..this is invitation only. So when you come please bring your invitation when the time comes..I'll let everyone know again..but this is for safety reasons mostly..we're kinda worried about some idiots showing up that most definitely don't have a place there..and I hate for this to sound snobby..because that's not the purpose at all.!! We just really don't want people showing up..like Adam's biological mother or my ex or anyone in his crazy family. The wedding is still gonna be normal..except with that little feature. Hahah. Cayle is getting his first haircut this week. My instructor said she would cut it. It would be a good opportunity for the other students to learn what to do when you have a baby client..I think I'm gonna cry when she cuts his hair...but it really is starting to look unkept..and I don't want people thinking I'm a bad mom or something. But hey, what can you do.? Christina was telling me about how she got tons of good deals at the thrift store on baby clothes..sounds like where I need to go. Considering I have so many projects going on that all require money. I finally got us a craft box.! And it has grooves in it to where it can stack on top of another. And I'm out of room and still have supplies that need storing. I want your opinion on something..Adam and I are planning on moving in together at the start of next year and here we are almost 6 months away from that..does a stock pile (mini stock pile that is) of house hold items used often like paper towels, toilet paper, paper plates, garbage bags, napkins, cleaning products, and hand soaps sound like a good idea.? I think it is but Adam seems to think otherwise. I thought it was a money saving idea. Moderation is key of course, and a lot of my goals are requiring moderation and money saving benefits. I'm also starting my Christmas shopping soon. I know thats probably a little crazy..but why buy it all at once.? Why not buy a little at a time so I can actually ENJOY my favorite time of year.? And possibly splurge on Christmas ornaments and decor.?? Exactly..of course I can never give up my Black Friday ninja-ness. So I'll get whatever I can for the house or extra gifts. Cause when you think about it..6-7 months isn't really a lot of time to get everything done..especially with my scehdule. And money.